What if I am amazing?

I'm down 7 pounds since 10/17. That's pretty good. It is amazing how even a little momentum can make a difference. And Josh.

I had my first full session with LCJ (Life Coach Josh). He does a great job - he listens, redirects, asks probing questions, and helps me create action. Today we did a "Discovery" session where we got to know each other. His first question out the gate was: "Is there anything that happened with this week that will keep you from being present to our session today?" I loved that. Simple but centering. I gave a few little things and then I was really ready for the conversation.

I've had a good week in terms of self-discovery. I will blog about my Monday night group in a hot minute, but not tonight.

I love that Josh is concrete and action-oriented and tender and kind. It is contagious. One of the things I am going to do for myself is to stop describing myself as "not a good person" or "Dick Cheney" or whatever undersell of my ability to be nurturing and kind I am slogging on a particular day.

To be sure, I can be a total prick. But I think I am ultimately a kind man. I care about people. I get furious when I feel people are being compromised or ridiculed or negated or marginalized. I get tired and cranky and melodramatic. But I'm a better guy than I often five myself credit for....

When I hung up from my call with LCJ, I spontaneously said - "what if I am amazing????" There was not thought in it, it was not conscious or premeditated - just an interjection.

But, what if I am amazing.