Good Vibrations

Dr. Tracy, my fantastic psychotherapist gave me a CD at my last session. It is about ALLOWING. It is clear that when I get too caught up in controlling things - people mostly - that I am really not allowing myself to function at my happiest. The speakers are the co-creators of the idea of the law of attraction. Rather, they are the channelers of this idea. When you allow yourself to vibrate at your truest self, then you are happy and fulfilled, regardless of the behavior or interactions of others. This CD is a combination of things that are really sensible, universal even. It also has some whack job shit on it that I'm just not ready to embrace. True to the AA adage, I will take what I need and leave the rest.

By far the most difficult things in my life right now are relationships. Work is great - I love what I am doing, I am grateful for my job, I am paid well and have great benefits. Work is defining for me so that nails a huge part of my life satisfaction when that is in line.

But relationships are more complicated. Several posts ago I talked about some really crazy people at church who are just making things unpleasant as I try to help them out with music. They are blocking my chi. I allow myself to unblock it.

Of course, my partner relationship is the most difficult. It is generally devoid of the fag drama that salts most of these relationships. Generally, I said.

I think it's clear to both of us, at least it is clear to me, that this is not forever. This is for right now. Maybe that's all any relationship ever really is. There are lots of things that are good, and as many that are not good. Whatever the mix on any given day, it is simply a relationship that does not vibrate where I desire it to. I will not allow myself to relax into it and depend on it. These are difficult things for me to do under any circumstances. The difficulty is compounded by being with someone who doesn't get my frequency. That's okay, he doesn't have to.

Here is a video clip of the Law of Attraction. I have summoned some quotes from the clip to reflect on this week.

• It is easier to come into alignment with source when you are withdrawing from things that are taking you out of alignment.
• If you see something that was bothersome and you look away from it, you leave the vibration right where it was.
• Ask yourself - how would my inner being approach this subject? How is my inner being seeing this? What aspect of you does my inner being see?
• Aligning with who you are and then co-creating with others is the best.
• When you reach the place that you don't need to demand of them that they be in alignment when you play with them - because you are - now you've got it.
• The art of allowing is allowing them whether they allow me or not.